Big day is coming and this week has been a flurry of planned and unplanned tasks. I felt really heavy and burdened by a number of things and then the unplanned and unexpected happened. Yesterday came some perspective. Not necessarily the "see the bigger picture" but more like, "connect with the reason why all of this is happening." In this space, I reconnected to that love that I feel and ultimately why we're here. By reconnecting with the love, I feel now excited about what's happening, rather than burdened. I feel more alive, this is a good thing, this is a celebration.
I also connected with the fact that I do not need to do or respond to everything that comes my way. I delegated some things and others I simply didn't respond to. Will something not get done? Yes, probably. Will it not getting done lead to more difficulty later? Probably. One of the key elements I have found is by letting go I am allowing myself to live with the consequences of that action. Good or bad. Indifferent or not. I don't have to figure out the end. So much of time and space gets taken up with planning for what is going to be, rather than what is. Yes, plans need to be made. But how much time and space and agony is taken up when those plans don't fall into place? By letting go of the outcome, I allow space for the ever-fluctuating, pulsating and changing nature of the universe. I allow for others to have their own experiences. I put the responsibility of those decisions back in the laps of the deciders, not taking on things that aren't mine. And ultimately, what do I trust? The idea of failure or the idea of reasons, seasons, change and unexpected surprises.